I took my blood sugar this morning, 184 means the pills are working.
I had my shake with my meds. My breakfast was powdered eggs, sausage patty and bacon, except the eggs were so bad I tossed them. About 11 I was STARVING. I had already eaten some nuts and a pear, but I was dying. So, I went back to Club 40 and got a grilled cheddar and bacon sandwich on marble rye. Yeah, it was good. It was bread, but it wasn't a lot of beard - they were serving other sandwiches on Texas Toast!
Lunch was chicken and broccoli and I had an apple. When I got to the car, Steph and I were immediately talking about dinner. Both of us were hungry, stressed and wanted junk food. It's an hour home and the whole thing was an ordeal! What junk food do you want? Should we really cheat? What junk food do you want? If I cheat I have to put it in my blog - $#@&$# BLOG!!!
I came to the conclusion that I might as well just go home and go to bed. If we didn't cheat, the food would not be what I wanted. If I did cheat, I'd feel all guilty and, really, is a meal worth that much guilt?
In the end, Steph made chicken and salad. It wasn't a cheat and it wasn't what I wanted. The fruit and Jello helped my sweet tooth but only a little.
I hate being fat. But, I hate being an addict more. There had better be some weight loss on Monday. If there isn't, I don't know what I'll do!
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Yay! You didn't have to write about eating cheating. :) Or is it cheating eating? I am so proud of you! Good job!!
I think you will see a difference on the scale on Monday. And if you don't...maybe you could call Jenny Craig. Ha ha! Just a small joke there. No seriously, maybe you could call your doctor and see what she suggests. Or just go see a nutritionist and ask what would be best for you.
I have lost lots of weight before on South Beach/Atkins. However, I found it hard to stick to, and then with the carbs I was eating, in combination w/ the high amt of calories from the cheese, bacon, etc, I was at a standstill and wasn't losing. My body never was in ketosis long because I would "cheat" and eat cake or bread.
In reading your blog, you sound a lot like me. So don't give up, even if Monday doesn't show a big loss. THere are other methods, and it took me a LONG time to finally find a weight loss plan I think I can live with the rest of my life. Years. You will find one too. Maybe it is what you are doing, maybe not. Time will tell. THe main thing to remember is....if what you are doing isn't working...Try something else..but never stop trying!
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