Monday, January 19, 2009

I hear you, Sue. Thank you.

Today I lost faith. But, it's only temporary.

I got up this morning and checked The Sugar. My blood sugar measured at 303. It should be around 100. It was like 96 this summer, the last time I saw my doctor. Something has changed. I've been able to bring it down, but not enough. So, yeah, I'm going to call my doctor tomorrow.

Then, I got on the scale: 496. I have been behaving. I have been up and moving. I have been denying myself everything and the weight is just fluctuating in the same ten pound range. By now I should be below 490. My bet is that with my blood sugar off, I'm just spinning my wheels.

So, yeah, I went off the diet today. Food is my drug and I needed a fix. I had fast food and candy. There wasn't much in the house that wasn't "on" and my stomach has shrunk so much I can't eat buckets of food. But, I pretty much snacked out all day. If it says anything, I ordered a diet cola with my fast food. Gods I'm fucked up.

The diet will resume tomorrow. I'm up too late for a workout. But, I will call my doctor. I'll figure it out yet.

4 comments:

janniegirl said...

keep the faith my friend. you will get there. make sure you tell your doctor that you have started a weight loss program and see if he has any advice for kick starting it some. I imagine your high sugars have something to do with your fluctuations...

you will do this...:)

Laura said...

Have you seen a dietitian? Especially if you have diabetes, it might be a good idea to have a professional help you with your meal planning until you get into a good habit.

Sue said...

Wow, I've never had my name in a post title before. :) Hee hee. I feel famous.

So glad you really "heard me" Jericho! I was researching about blood sugars today and found an awesome website about diabetes. It is called Blood Sugars 101, I think. Just google: "What should a normal blood sugar be?", and you will find it. Great information in understandable terms. Don't despair, and DON'T GIVE UP!!

Jericho Brown said...

Found the site:

http://www.phlaunt.com/diabetes/

Learned more in an hour of reading than I've learned in the last two years. Wow! Thanks again, Sue!

I'm giving up on Soy and Sugar Alcohols!