Couch Pear

I can't have potatoes, thus I'm a couch pear. I thought about "couch apple" but that brings up the wrong image!

Today was spent watching TV on the couch. Yeah, it wasn't active, but I just don't have the energy. Once I'm used to the amped up meds, maybe I'll get around a bit more.

I had a shake. Then I had baked chicken and cole slaw. I finished the chicken for dinner. I had fruit and nuts and pears and grapes as snacks. Not bad on food.

It was a good, relaxing day.

Just Friday

I had my shake, then an omelet and two sausage patties for breakfast. Lunch was chicken left overs with broccoli. There were nuts, a pear and an apple.

Dinner was a large portion of teriyaki with a small salad.

I avoided cake at a work function. I might have a pear before I go to bed.

I better lose weight on Monday!

What the Gordita???

I took my blood sugar this morning, 184 means the pills are working.

I had my shake with my meds. My breakfast was powdered eggs, sausage patty and bacon, except the eggs were so bad I tossed them. About 11 I was STARVING. I had already eaten some nuts and a pear, but I was dying. So, I went back to Club 40 and got a grilled cheddar and bacon sandwich on marble rye. Yeah, it was good. It was bread, but it wasn't a lot of beard - they were serving other sandwiches on Texas Toast!

Lunch was chicken and broccoli and I had an apple. When I got to the car, Steph and I were immediately talking about dinner. Both of us were hungry, stressed and wanted junk food. It's an hour home and the whole thing was an ordeal! What junk food do you want? Should we really cheat? What junk food do you want? If I cheat I have to put it in my blog - $#@&$# BLOG!!!

I came to the conclusion that I might as well just go home and go to bed. If we didn't cheat, the food would not be what I wanted. If I did cheat, I'd feel all guilty and, really, is a meal worth that much guilt?

In the end, Steph made chicken and salad. It wasn't a cheat and it wasn't what I wanted. The fruit and Jello helped my sweet tooth but only a little.

I hate being fat. But, I hate being an addict more. There had better be some weight loss on Monday. If there isn't, I don't know what I'll do!

Just a day.

I doubled my meds today. Last time I have to do that until the doc sees me. No ill effects so far. I think I might check my blood sugar in the morning to see where I am.

Shake, bacon, sausage, (very little) powdered eggs, nuts, poultry over salad, apple, small T Bone and broccoli. *Yawn!* At this stage in the diet, food loses all it's sparkle and interest for me. It's just food. This must be how heroin addicts feel about methadone.

Kinda looking forward to weighing in on Monday, I hope to see some weight gone.

Waste of a Donut!

I love donuts. No, seriously, it's like a romantic thing with me. I'm very affectionate with my pastry!

When I got to work today, I went to Club 40 and saw that, unlike many days, they had donuts. Good donuts and a bunch of them. I could have bought four of them. I would have enjoyed them very much. Instead I had powdered eggs. Life isn't fair.

I also had bacon and a sausage patty and a salad with chicken for lunch and left over quiche for dinner with canned fruit and sugar free Jello for dessert. Nuts for a snack. I know you know most of this.

The worst part is that when I went to get my salad at lunch, two of the donuts from breakfast were wrapped in plastic and still for sale. But, they are never as good that late in the day. What a waste. I would have made a good donut daddy. A proud pastry parent!

Relapse

Being an addict means you are always saying you are sorry.

But, I'm not sorry. Not yet.

The day started off as good as a Monday can. My blood sugar was 202. The increased meds are indeed working. I still have a double up on those in a couple of days - I'm sure my number will go down further. My weight went to 492. I guess it's better than going up. I sure would like to see less than 490 - not that I will get there quick.

I had my shake-meds cocktail. Breakfast was a small portion of powdered eggs, two strips of bacon and two sausage links, not patties - smaller!

I had some nuts. Lunch was left over chicken and turkey over salad. I had an apple in the afternoon.

A combination of hunger, stress and my wife and I enabling each other led us to another casino buffet for dinner. (Lots of casinos in the area!) I went fully intending to stuff my face while stuffing my diet! I didn't care. I needed my fix.

Somewhere my brain kinda kicked in, a little. I opened with protein, a lot of protein! I'm not going to say how much exactly, let's just say it was very much. By the time I got all the protein down, the fire was out of me and I only had room for one, very nice, piece of chocolate cake. It was REALLY good.

So, dinner was a total loss, full of disaster and shame - and excellent chocolate cake. The rest of the day, food wise, was okay.

Blart

Steph and I got up and out before 10 AM. Not bad for a Sunday. We wanted breakfast before we did a few fun errands.

Breakfast was three fried eggs, three bacon strips and a 12 oz. tri tip. I also ate the fruit garnish. I however did not get any bread or hash browns.

We did our errands, then went off to the movies. We finally got to see the movies we wanted to see last weekend: Paul Blart Mall Cop and Bride Wars. No pop corn or candy. I had a large Coke Zero.

Dinner was from Chipotle, a Burrito Bowl. I had steak, beans, sour cream, cheese and lettuce. I also had a pear.

I'm far too caffeinated to go to bed right now, so I don't see myself on the treadmill tomorrow. But, I am increasing my meds tonight and I'll check my blood sugar and weight tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Lazy Saturday

I got up before 8. I did something this morning I haven't done in a long while: I sat down and played WoW! It's easy to while away some hours there - just letting one's ass expand ...

Then, I took my meds with a shake. Steph made her soon to be famous crustless quiche. It was good and I had a goodly chuck of it.

I then settled my ass in for much TV watching. Along the way I ate lots of nuts, an apple, a pear and some celery with cream cheese.

Dinner was baked meatballs left overs and salad. Dessert was some HUGE seedless grapes.

High on the fruit sugars, but considering how desperately I wanted Reese's Peanut Butter cups and chocolate in general, I'd call today a win.

Tomorrow night I up my meds again.

Terisucky

Friday is omelet day at work. Mine had ham, sausage and bacon. I added two additional strips of bacon. Yum!

Lunch, however, sucked. I went to the food court at West Lake Mall, I ran an errand near by. I found a teriyaki place and thought that would be a good bet. I started with the woman at the register who did not really speak English. She just made noises, then made them louder when I didn't understand her. For example, she said "Joowan dwick?" Which I interpreted to mean "Would you like a tasty beverage with your meal?" Luckily, I was correct.

I ordered the beef teriyaki. What I got was a pile of white rice, some over-cooked veggies, what I hope was some type of beef fried in sauce and topped in even more sauce. My request for no sauce and no rice resulted in double for both. This and a large diet "dwick" cost me $9. I ate the beef and veggies. I threw away about two pounds of rice dripping in sugar-sauce.

Steph made baked meatballs and salad for dinner. Much tastier!

Had a couple of light headed moments today. Gotta love new drugs!

Coming to Grips

I'm not happy about the blood sugar issues and having to increase my meds. I know there is nothing I can do and that I just need to move on - but I'm just not wired like that. I'm frustrated and tired and tired of being frustrated and tired.

Food was pretty simple today. Shake, powdered eggs, two bacon and a sausage patty, chicken over salad. A pear and nuts for snacks. Dinner was take-out teriyaki with no sauce. I also had a little left over cheese dip - I think I had more celery than dip.

I'm looking forward to measuring my blood sugar on Monday. I am hopeful I will see a number well below 300. I don't expect to see any weight loss. The following Monday will be a different story.

Missed one!

I missed my post last night. I'm getting a little lazy with this.

So, as for yesterday, I did indeed go to the doctor. My doctor thanked me for coming in - I guess I scared her. She increased the dosage on my meds, one by 8X and the other by 4X. I'll be ramping up to that level over the next week. We'll see how it goes.

As for food yesterday, well, I fasted before I went to the doctor so that she could run an A1C test. So, by the time I left the doctor, I was going to go find some food. Finding decent food Downtown before lunch isn't the easiest deal. So, I just went home. By the time I got back to my car in Kent, then did one errand for the wife, it was Noon. There is an Indian Buffet I have wanted to try for a while. I think I had some chicken, I know I lost a layer of skin due to the spiciness. I, unfortunately, was served some of the best Naan I have ever eaten! (I was hungrier than I was smart.)

After than I had some nuts and some sugar free Jell-o. Dinner was steak and salad.

I will go back to see the doctor in six weeks. I'm hoping the meds work and maybe I can start taking off the weight.

I nearly went to bed before writing this!

I'm going to see the doctor tomorrow. Then I'm going to see a movie and generally take the day off! This will give the doctor whatever time she needs to run whatever tests she wants to run.

Food today didn't go badly. I had bacon and sausage for breakfast. I had chicken over salad for lunch. Dinner was turkey and cole slaw. There was a banana, an apple, some nuts for snacks and I had fruit cocktail for dessert.

I'm not looking forward to tomorrow. My body is falling apart randomly and I just never know what's going to fall off next.

I hear you, Sue. Thank you.

Today I lost faith. But, it's only temporary.

I got up this morning and checked The Sugar. My blood sugar measured at 303. It should be around 100. It was like 96 this summer, the last time I saw my doctor. Something has changed. I've been able to bring it down, but not enough. So, yeah, I'm going to call my doctor tomorrow.

Then, I got on the scale: 496. I have been behaving. I have been up and moving. I have been denying myself everything and the weight is just fluctuating in the same ten pound range. By now I should be below 490. My bet is that with my blood sugar off, I'm just spinning my wheels.

So, yeah, I went off the diet today. Food is my drug and I needed a fix. I had fast food and candy. There wasn't much in the house that wasn't "on" and my stomach has shrunk so much I can't eat buckets of food. But, I pretty much snacked out all day. If it says anything, I ordered a diet cola with my fast food. Gods I'm fucked up.

The diet will resume tomorrow. I'm up too late for a workout. But, I will call my doctor. I'll figure it out yet.

A string of minor disasters.

This morning began well enough. I had a small piece of quiche. We decided to go to the movies.

We were cutting it close to late, but we would only miss the previews. I got out of the shower and got dressed in one of my favorite pairs of pants. As I was getting dressed, Steph stepped out of her shower ... kinda limpy-gimpy. She had bent down to pick up a bra and pulled her back. She still wanted to go to the movies - I thought we should cancel, but we geared up to go.

I was all set to beat the Theater Challenge! I would get a diet cola at the concession stand and have it refilled for the second movie, thus halving its price. Caffeine is an appetite suppressant, right? Plus, I brought a baggy of nuts and some low-carb bars for snacking. I wasn't about to give into the candy and popcorn monsters!

We got out to the car to see we were parked a little close to the next car. I was going to drive since Steph's back hurt. Getting in was a tight squeeze, but I made it! However, my pants didn't! As I sat down, my pants ripped from taint to pooper. So much for a favorite pair of pants! This was going to make us even later. I ran in and changed pants, ran out and squeezed back into the car. Someday I'm going to be tall and skinny and such things will not concern me.

We get to the theater, Steph suggested that she get out and buy tickets while I parked. She said "Owie! Owie! Owie!" as she got out. Sitting for four hours of movies suddenly became a very bad idea.

She got back in the car and we headed to the store. We bought frozen burger patties and kosher dogs and whole grain buns. I grilled them up. I put two patties on one bun and two dogs on another bun. Sure, it was carbs, but if you have to have bread, it was the best way to go!

Dinner was marinated chicken over salad. Dessert was a can of fruit cocktail in Splenda. There were nuts for a snack.

Food was a win. Activities and clothes were a total loss!

A Good Saturday

I hung out with my friends most of the day. Days like this are usually filled with tons of sugar and junk food. Today was not.

Breakfast was fried eggs, ham and cheese. Lunch was some pork. Dinner was roasted chicken left overs. I had some canned peaches (in Splenda) and sugar free pudding for a treat. My portions were probably over large, but considering I didn't down a dozen donuts or a bag of cookies - as I usually would - it's a win.

I'm hoping that all of this begins to add up and show up on the scale. We shall soon see - weigh in is on Monday, even if it is a holiday.

Dee-Light

Breakfast was an omelet. Lunch was a salad and some baked chicken. I ate an apple and some nuts for a snack.

Dinner was fun. We got Dee-Light pizzas from Papa Murphy's. I ate a salad and only had five out of eight pieces. Low carb and a bit of a treat. I've earned it!

Not a bad week. I think I'll be much more "on" this weekend than last!

Blog Crossing

I wrote an entry about this diet and this blog on my other blog. Check it out if you wish.

I had my shake. The powdered eggs again sucked, but I had two strips of bacon and a sausage patty so I didn't starve. I was still pretty hungry, I downed an apple and a banana and some nuts before noon. Noon was some baked chicken. In the afternoon I had a bar - 180 calories of low carbiness!

Dinner was kinda funny. Steph had to stay late at work. So, we decided to get something a little faster on the way home. We stopped at Costco. They have HUGE roast chickens. We bought two. Steph took my wings in trade for her legs. By the time I finished the legs and a thigh - I was full. I was essentially looking at a full chicken - and that was all I could eat. I can't believe how easy it is to fill me! I had some salad, but that was it!

So, good on food. It's a win.

Cupcakes!!!

Yeah, I'll get back to the treadmill this weekend or next week. I'm going to stop stressing about it.

I had my shake. Breakfast was Eggs Benedict - I asked for it without the english muffin, the sauce and the ham. I ended up with three baked eggs and three strips of bacon.

Lunch was the last of the chicken & broc left-overs. I had an apple, a banana and some nuts as snacks.

Then, we had our little event at work. The event celebrated all of the people in my department that had anniversaries. I was "celebrating" 8 years. I knew there would be treats of some type. I planned to go, get a can of Diet 7Up, stay long enough to call it an appearance and then get the heck out.

Yeeeeeah. The management in my department can't even figure out how to throw a party. There were no drinks. Nothing. But, oh dear jeebus!, the conference table, one of the largest in the firm, was COATED in cupcakes. My blood sugar jumped just walking into the room. It was like dropping a cocaine addict into a Miami Police Department evidence locker. I said hello to a few people and got the hell out - I didn't get any cupcake on me.

Dinner was started with some BBQ Pork, some cheese and salami and eight - 8 - Ritz crackers, then the main course was crustless quiche. I had a container of fruit cocktail in Splenda syrup for desert - that was about 200 calories.

So, all told, not bad. I didn't need the crackers, but I didn't eat four cupcakes.

Just Okay

The cold is tapering off, thankfully.

I didn't get to the treadmill. Sucks.

Food for today started, as always, with a protein shake. The powdered eggs sucked, I ate a few bites and had four strips of bacon. I had an apple and a banana. Lunch was some chicken & broccoli in white sauce left overs. There was some nuts for a snack. Dinner was a medium T Bone with a salad. Over all, the food was in the win column.

I didn't get on the treadmill, but I walked around the store with Steph tonight. A little movement is better than none.

Tomorrow they are having a function I must attend. There will be cake and cookies and who knows what else. We'll see if I survive.

Decent until Dinner

Yeah, last night ended pretty late - with Big Macs and Corn Chips.

I didn't get up for the treadmill this morning.

My blood sugar was high, 426, but that was expected.

My weight was 492 ... not looking that horse in the mouth. My body is SO screwed up.

I had my shake, then had sausage patties on toast with cheese - not great. I drank a thing of OJ, looking for the vitamin C there. Lunch was a salad - my one good-boy meal of the day. There was an apple and some nuts in there as snacks.

Dinner was left-over chicken and scalloped potatoes. Then more corn chips (whoops! Finished the bag!) Then a baloney sandwich. I'm so freeking stuffed I could barf. Stupid! I had a stupid and rough day and I wasn't feeling good to boot, so I turned to food. Typical!

This keeping an honest record of what I'm doing isn't fun anymore. I'm going to bed now.

Back to work tomorrow.

The cold is hanging on, but I'm good enough to go back to hell ...urm, work.

Today's food consisted of a run to BK. One meal. That was around lunch time.

About an hour ago I started to get pretty hungry. The wife was on the phone. I figured she'd be off soon and we could get something to eat. She just got off the phone and she isn't hungry.

I'm left to decide between going out and buying food, then staying up for two hours so as not to give myself heart burn. Or, go to bed on an empty stomach so I can do the treadmill in the morning.

I'm not sure what I'm going to do yet, neither option is very good. Guess you'll find out what I did tomorrow.

Still off, feeling a bit better.

The cold is cough and sniffles. Some sore throat issues still. I hate being sick.

Left over KFC for breakfast. Dinner was some kind of Au Gratin Potatoes and Chicken thing that the wife made - tasted awesome. There were a couple of cookies. To control my cough, I had several cups and glasses of full sugar tea.

The weigh in Monday will not be pretty. Did I mention I hate being sick?

This blog is a bit more interesting to read than I thought it might be. There's some drama now. Will he get back on the diet or will he fail before January is even half through???

Tune in tomorrow. Same fat time! Same fat channel!!

Still Sick, Still Bad

Stayed home sick again today. The headache and sinus issues have become a cough.

When I have a cold I want to sleep and eat. I did both today.

Start with a T-Bone and four eggs. Then it was a lot of pudding. Then a baloney sandwich. Dinner was chicken strips from KFC, complete with biscuits, slaw and mashed potatoes and gravy. Then, left over Xmas candy.

So, yeah, the good I've done has probably been ruined by the bad I've done the last two days, but I don't care. I hate being sick and I wasn't about to starve and be sick!

I'll get back on ... probably Monday. Maybe sooner.

Bad, Sick, Nasty Boy

I got my wife's cold. It showed up out of the blue today. I stayed home from work. I'm probably staying home tomorrow.

This seems to be the way it always works. I get serious about a diet and I get sick and the diet dies with the virus. I wonder if my resistance goes down when I diet?

So, food today was some baked chicken, four fried eggs, some nuts, some corn chips, then a double cheese burger, Sprite and fries from Wendy's. I didn't eat but a few fries, I couldn't taste them. So ... not good.

My only saving grace for the day is that I discovered the cold as I did my time on the treadmill this morning, so, four days in a row. I will NOT be on the treadmill tomorrow. My streak will have to sit at four days for the moment.

I fully intend to get back on the wagon. But, I've said that before. We'll see.

Day Three

Third day on the treadmill at 5 AM. Excellent.

This is where this starts to get boring: shake, powdered eggs, two strips of bacon and a sausage patty - Opps! Something new there! Then lunch was a salad with turkey. Dinner was a chicken and broccoli thing Steph made. It had an Alfredo sauce and I had more salad. I snuck a few Triscuits.

I was really hungry all day. So hungry, the powdered egg product actually tasted good! Weird!

(5 AM) X 2 = :)

Two days in a row I've gotten up at 5 for the treadmill. Let's see if I can do it again tomorrow ...

Other than that, I had my shake with my meds, powdered eggs and two strips of bacon, an apple, a banana, salad with vinaigrette and turkey, some nuts and a bunless double whopper and a salad for dinner.

I so want to keep going on this. It feels right.

Mixed Results

The ticker is not incorrect.

I weigh 495 according to my scale this morning. The 490 seemed too good to be true. It seemed like a gift from the diet gods to encourage me on. Well, what the diet gods give, the little buggers can take away!

I'm not angry. I'm not giving up. I just hoped for better.

So, that was my lost battle for the day. However, I had some wins. My blood sugar is down to 326, still high but going down. Also, I got up at 5 AM and did the freekin' treadmill - BIG WIN! I'm hoping I can repeat it tomorrow.

Food was pretty simple for the day. I had a shake, powdered eggs and only two strips of bacon (I normally eat four), a salad with turkey & vinaigrette dressing for lunch, some nuts for a snack, then leftover baked chicken and bag salad with vinaigrette dressing for dinner. A good deal.

Next week's weigh in will be better. I just have to believe it will be.

Laziness

Had a somewhat lazy Sunday. Nothing wrong with that.

I got up late and as I was about to get on the treadmill, the wife requested I do a run to the store for her. So, I got to walk around in the store instead of on the treadmill. Not quite the same but still okay. The only bad thing was that I managed to not take my meds before I left.

It took forever to get through the checkout line. By the time I got home, my head was spinning from lack of food. I bought some baked chicken and salad at the store. I scarfed that down, took my meds and had a shower.

Then, I sat around and watched TV. I had some nuts and a few clementines. Exciting!

Steph went back to the store to buy dinner (yes, too many trips to the store this weekend!) She made T Bones and salad. Excellent food!

Not a bad day.

I'm off to bed here in a minute. Tomorrow is a big day for me and this diet. I want to get up and get on the treadmill. I want to take my blood sugar. I want to weigh in. All I want the scale to say is "489" - at this point I will really settle for one pound, just to justify the sacrifices I've made. It's highly possible I will have gained weight. Either way, I won't give up. I just want to see a result.

Bring on Monday! I can take it!

Market Trip

Today was made of win!

Started the day with my meds and protein shake. Did a half hour on the treadmill. All good!

Steph made a crustless quiche for breakfast. Eggs, ham, cheese, broccoli & onion - it was tasty, low carb and the right size portion.

While Steph took down the tree, I made a run to a few stores for Xmas gift exchanges and staples. I parked far off from the stores, took my time and just walked. I don't know if you'd call it a work out, but I wasn't laying on the couch eating donuts, either!

By the time I got home, I was starving. I ate about a dozen chicken wings left over from New Years.

Late tonight, Steph went out and bought me a bunless double whopper and a salad with some chicken. Probably later than I should have eaten, but the portion was about right and totally on. If eating late is the worst sin I've committed today, I'll take it!

Today is an example I should follow every Saturday. I ate right and I moved more. Excellent!

Dinner at the Casino

I did not start the day on the treadmill. Working out everyday is my goal, I'm just not there yet.

My blood sugar was 397. I'm going to stop measuring so often. It's starting to frustrate me and I don't need that this early in the process. I'll check it once or twice a week. If by mid to late January it's not better, I'll talk to my doctor about upping my meds.

I had my soy protein shake with my meds. At work I had an omelet with mushrooms, sausage and Swiss cheese. Normally I would have also had four strips of bacon but I skipped it. I was plenty full.

With the office being about half full, the internal cafe, "Club 40" wasn't serving an entree at lunch and they only had salami for meat on the salad bar. (Now and then they have tofu.) So, I walked three blocks to a teriyaki place. The walk back is uphill! It took about twenty minutes. It's not the 30 minutes on the treadmill I should have gotten this morning, but it's more movement than I would have gotten - we'll call it a win. I also got meat and veggies, no sauce, no rice. The portion was larger than I should have had, but in all the meal was a win as well.

Dinner, while low carb, was a bit much. We'll call it the last hurrah. We needed to drop something off to a friend north of Seattle. So, my wife says, why don't we try the buffet at the Tulalip Casino. My mouth went "Sure!" before my brain could kick in. We SOOOO enable each other.

So, the bad news is the portions were rather large. The good news is that I kept the carbs to a minimum. I had the pot roast, some meat balls and a healthy portion of alder wood smoked salmon. I've been wanting more fish in my diet! For dessert, I had a large portion of fruit salad: grapes, pineapple, melon, oranges. I didn't get any bread, rice, pasta, fried chicken or ... dessert!!! And there was plenty there.

Did I mention the desserts? OY!

If I were to go again, I'd do the steamed veggies and the salmon and the fruit.

So, all low carb and avoiding temptations. Need to work on daily exercise and portion control.

Not too bad

Got off to a good start with an half hour on the treadmill.

Checked my blood sugar before I got on, it was 374. After a protein shake and the work out, it was 369 ... interesting ... and scary!

Today was low carb but not low fat!

I had three eggs and four strips of bacon for breakfast. I had three clementines after the eggs.

I think I ate three pounds of grapes while were were playing board games with friends. There's some fiber!

I had some veggies and a low carb veggie dip with a few Wheat Thins for snack.

Dinner was pot roast with steamed broccoli and salad. I plowed into the roast and made something of a pig of myself ... but it was REALLY good and I was quite hungry.

I had water and diet beverages.

I'm off to bed now ... I hope I can drag my ass out in the morning for the treadmill.